This week has included a lot of thinking on top of the planning and painting. Thinking is sometimes good, sometimes bad. On Friday I lamented with a few friends over just what future had in store for us. I chatted with my dad about what I’m doing after May. My wife and I had a long future-based conversation last night. Today at my dad’s Rotary club meeting a few people asked where I was headed. I don’t know.
For a long time I wanted to be a high school history teacher and nothing else. It was college that pushed me in about twelve other directions. I like teaching. I like history. I also like human rights, politics, international relations, government, aid work and travel. So I need to parse these things out. The one thing I’m really sure about is that I want to get a doctorate.
I have a big word document that lists all sorts of programs and schools, financial aid and research centers. I know I want to continue learning, and I know I want to get an advanced degree. Between the humanities and social science I can’t really decide where to narrow my focus. Plus, where do I put all of those other interests? Do I try to mix and blend? Will that make me into a traveling scholar who does aid work? A government staffer on international relations and human rights? Maybe I’ll just try to get my own cooking show.
Seeing as how I have my eyes set on some sort of advanced degree, and seeing as how I’m just now wrapping up my undergraduate degree, I have some time. That said, decisions made now (or soon) will determine what I do for a long, long time. From conversations with various professors over the last two years, and a heart-hurting article in The Chronicle and some insightful, albeit less than optimistic blog posts, it will be a long, long road. Do I want to be a college professor? Yes. When? In what? Hell if I know.
Do any of you have an idea of what you’re going to do? Better yet, if you are a PhD student or a post-doc, any advice that’s not an outright deterrent? I’m graduating in May and it’s a big, challenging world out there.